When your gone,

Its been about two months since Aunty Myda's gone, and i still miss her. It doesn't feel like two months. Reading Lucinda's blog reminds me of her and I just don't understand why she had to leave, just like that, without saying goodbye. I miss her alot and the other maid just can't be compared to her, she just can't be. I just wished that at least we said goodbye, i wished that i said goodbye. I would gladly forgo the trip to the birdpark and even the sleepover just to say goodbye. Thinking of her makes me sad, makes me cry because she's such a big part of my life and no one can replace her. I don't understand why she just couldn't say goodbye! I wish she'd stay. I wish everything was different. I wish you loved me and not her. I wish i never loved you, wish i didn't have to take the Os. I wish that everything was just not like what it is now.
Ah crap, i don't think i can wake up for school later. Is it possible to actually like sing yourself to sleep?